-whine- Life is unfair.

[Nurse Fin]

Er, well, I haven't posted here in a long while...

Anyway... 2 years ago, I had planned to go to Disneyland with my best friend on the 21st (that is, tomorrow), but I've been in an emotional slump the past few months, and in turn, my health has declined a lot... especially recently, with heart problems and stomach pains and the like... so I went to the doctor earlier today, and I guess I have a pretty serious problem. I don't really understand all the details, and I'm not sure what's causing it yet, but I have internal bleeding, or something...?

So obviously, I'm not going to Disneyland. I get to stay in the hospital tomorrow and be subjected to more tests while my friend and family all go to the happiest place on earth without me. And if any of you know me, well, I'm scared of hospitals... ;_;

I dunno, I guess I just felt like venting. It does feel unfair!

[Kat]

Fin wtf ;_; I'm so sorry.

XD Even in light of that serious problem though you're more concerned about missing out on Disneyland than your health! :P I'm pretty scared of hospitals too but the doctors will take care of you. Just take it easy okay? :\ That really sounds bad, all the happiness must have got your heart or something.

Disneyland can wait, but your health comes first.

[Sioux]

My guess it was toxic substances that were accidentally laced into fibers from dirty sweatshops in the all those china doll dresses you wear. Damn it Fin, I told you!

But seriously, I really hope you get better, internal bleeding doesn't sound fun...at all. And like Kat said, trust those scary caucasians guys in the white coats, they'll rob you blind but at least you'll be better.

[Tallulah]

Aww, Fin. :( I could never have imagined you posting in LHH.

When my friend Tricia first got ill with leukemia, I looked up various information about the illness, particularly on cancer charity websites, so I could better understand what could happen, and the survival rates, treatments, etc. Similarly, when I was going out with Jason, I read up on his problems, dyslexia and epilepsy, borrowing academic books, where I could, from the library, about these problems. It helped me better understand his conditions, and better understand him, even though it ultimately didn't work out.

So what I'd suggest is to find out as much as you can about your conditions you've been diagnosed with from reliable sources (medical, charity websites, textbooks), and ask your doctors if there's anything you're not sure about anything.

Anyway, get well soon, and I'm sure you'll be back to your happy-go-lucky self in no time! :D

[Nurse Fin]

So I got back from the hospital... I'm feeling a lot better now (btw I <3 morphine)...

'kay.. there was a change of plans on Friday, because my situation became drastically worse so I had to be rushed to the emergency room. First time I had an IV, too (well, it was more like 4 or 5 times... they kept missing the vein, gosh darnit). I was such a big baby about it that I cried. :P But in any case, I got re-hydrated and started feeling a little better... then I was prescribed some antibiotics and sent back home.

I was a huge grouch that evening (saying things like, "I hate TV, I hate music, shut them all off graaarrghh") and didn't get any sleep. I couldn't keep down any medicine, or even water (which was all I was allowed to ingest... I hadn't eaten in days and days), so I was in an even worse condition by Saturday. So I was rushed to the emergency room again... got an IV yet again (but at least I expected the pain this time), was given a wonderfully effective dose of morphine and was finally able to relax for a few hours. I got twice the amount of saline I was given on Friday and eventually felt well enough to eat.. a cracker. lol. Well, it's something.

So I finally found out what's wrong. It wasn't bacteria (which is what everyone thought it was), but some really rare obscure-ish parasite that was lying dormant for quite a while, and probably emerged due to all the stress I've been under lately. So here I am now, drugged up on Vicadin and anti-protozoans. Of course, the painkillers are making me feel a little loopy, but at least I've been able to sleep and drink like normal again. There's always the chance that something else is going on-- the blood culture tests turned out negative for everything other than that parasite so far, but the symptoms I've had are a lot more severe than what's typical, so... I'll have to deal with that later.

The real mystery, now, is how I could have gotten that parasite... it really makes no sense. It's found in lakes and things... but I've never even been to a lake before. o_O