Somethangs on my mind

[Sofa King]

Been a long time since I posted let alone gave some advice to anyone here at the LHH. But I do have my reasons with classes and everything in my life picking up. In actuality my life wont ever be the same from the first day since I joined UFF9.

Not sure if Im asking for help, giving advice through my own personal experience, or maybe just a bit of both.
If you gotten to know me then you probably know that Ive dealt with depression and suicidal tendencies; I do remember posting about it a bit before if you were able to read it months ago.

I do have good news. Im feeling better than I ever felt before and I do see life in a whole new way ever since my summer has ended. A vacation across the U.S. would give you a different perspective.
I was sure I wouldnt be a live today. Months ago I really wanted to give in and just enjoy my summer the best I could since I was getting ready to do the unthinkable when August ended. Had a long bout with a severe cause of depression and didnt see any solution possible. I really thought I failed in life. Had no future and didnt see any importance for me to contribute to my family. Theres more to it but really, its not important now.

After I came out and told the truth to my family that I wasnt able to deal with things anymore things suddenly changed. I realize now that people do care about me and want me to succeed. I just needed to believe in myself. I just need some confidence knowing I have support.
When you get depress like I did (do) motivation can be hard to come by.

Fast forward to the present, I see all the pain and suffering that I endured on myself into other people. We all go through some sort down side and some of us may just keep it all to ourselves; we all got to realize that we do need to ask for help in life; doing everything on your own and isolating ourselves from the people that we love isnt how you be successful.
A good example would be my friend that Ill call Michael. The most loyal and best friend Ill ever have in life and yet he feels the same way that I did before. It pains me to know that someone else that I care about feel like his life is worthless.
I would think that I could help him since Ive been through this before but its just really difficult for me to even talk about this. Its hard to even type about this now. I have been meaning to tell my story about this for weeks now but Ive been reluctant to. The personal aspect of it is just to great. But I do see the need for me to not keep this as a secret because I want to get over this. So far nothing to horrible has occured for me to go back into my chronic depression. Im just realizing how much I have left to offer before I depart from this world.

[Ozma Omega]

Argh, I'm terribly sorry about the late reply, Blank!
I haven't had much time here lately.

I'm really sorry to hear about your friend.
Hmm... whether to share your experiences with him or not is entirely up to you.
There's a good chance you'll be able to help him at least a little bit if you do, but if it's too hard and you're still having a lot of pain inside you, it might be best not to.
Giving advice based on your own experiences, especially recent ones, can be really hard to do, I know.
It's one of those dilemmas that don't have a definite answer.
But only tell him about your experiences if you don't think digging up the memories will greatly harm you.

If you choose not to, there are other ways of making someone feel better too, you know.
Try to be there for your friend as much as possible, assure him he can talk to you about his problems.
I've been through what you have too, and I know that having supportive friends helps a lot.

Best of luck, Blank!
And great to hear you're feeling better, too. :)

[Beatrix the Goddess]

Great to hear you're feeling better Blank :)

About sharing your experiences with your friend; I suppose I'm not the best person to ask, since I'm used to doing it in order to help people, and I've learnt to talk about things like that, without brooding on it & getting dragged down. It is possible to get that way, but don't force yourself. For now, I'd just spend a lot of time with your friend, supporting him just by being there, and if it so happens that the conversation drifts into an opportunity for you to talk about those things, then take it up if you feel you can. If not, then it doesn't matter; you just being there for him is still a lot of help.

Just make sure you don't stress yourself out by "picking a moment" to talk about it with him, then worrying until that moment comes. Of course you'll find it hard to talk about that way, and you will end up upset. So don't do that, just try & take an opportunity if you see one.

Hope things go well :)