2002...already?

Flicky · Nov 5, 2002, 11:18 AM

Over the last few days, I've just realized something...it's 2002!...The last 5 or so years have gone by so fast, I've lost track of them.

The other night while talking to my boyfriend, he said something about his grandparents being dead and I thought to my self "When did I last see Nana?"..."OMG she's dead."..."When did she die?"..."1999"... I just realized this, even though it really hasn't set in yet.

About from when I started high school, I've notice life has gone by really fast...I've forgotten my birthday along the way too...now when someone askes my age, I have to serious think hard about it..."What year is it?" and then maybe do a sum on my fingers or in my head to work it out.

Over the last few years...this has happened-
I've started high school
Made new friends
My Nana died
Managed not to go on camp
Being put up a year in maths
Passed School C. Maths a year early
Passed all my School C. subjects
Passed 6th form Maths
I got to know my boyfriend
My parents have split
My mum moved to Melbourne
My bro and I moved to Melbourne
I started a new high school
I tryed to fit in...plus countless other things I've forgotten...

This is all just catching up now...it's like my brain has a huge waiting line of stuff to be processed...Is this normal? I know my boyfriend has noticed the last few years going fast, having the same thing, but we could be both weird

My life sends so different from how I'd imagined it when I was a kid...and it seems to have happened so fast...it only seems like yesterday that I was considering leaving school in 2000 when I was 15 (I couldn't add back then) and being a hooker (I hadn't learnt that was bad or about STD's back then

)...I was only really little back then, like under 10...since then...I've gone through primary school and nearly finished high school and planning university.

So is this sorta thing normal? Is there anything I can do to sorta speed it up?...

***Beatrix the Goddess*** · Nov 5, 2002, 05:59 PM

Ugh, I know exactly how you feel. I'm sixteen in five months. Sixteen! Sixteen is supposed to be ages away, not just a few months! And I still feel like the millennium is something that hasn't happened yet. Looking back on when I was younger....you think everything's going to turn out great, don't you? The things that have actually happened to you, never even crossed your mind back then. Then sudden;y you realise just how far along the linme you are. All the dreams that have been shattered, and entirely new ones created. You always look to the future...so much so that you miss the present. You concentrate on the things that are out of reach, not the ones in reach. When I nine or ten...I thought everything was going to be great. I'd go to high school, do brilliantly in exams, get a fabulous career (at that time I wanted to be a paleontologist

), find true love first time round, then live a golden life with friends all around. Of course that was a dream to escape my prsent. The one where I was a shy, unpopular "weirdo". I hated it. But look at what happened instead-

I lost friends, but didn't find new ones
My sexuality came under question
I began not doing so well in school
I became shyer than ever, to the point where I couldn't keep eye contact for more than two seconds
A huge quarrel split my family in half
I got chronic fatigue syndrome
My first serious relationship ended when I was cheated on
And now I sometimes wish to go back to those early years, where everything was far more simple than it is now

But I still have some enthusiasm for life, because there are good things. Very good things. Reasons to live.

Ahem, but this isn't supposed to be about me. Moving on.

I think I've made clear that you are most definitely not the only person to discover this. I think everyone realises it at some point in their life, and to me, it seems better to realise it sooner rather than later. That big moment where you realise just how fast life flashes by. And I think while you're in that mood, it's good to reflect on things. To make peace with yourself. To change or stay the same. And if this has made a big enough impression on you, then maybe you can start really concentrating on taking in the present. Opening all your senses to it. Experiencing it. Remembering it. It's something many people find hard to do, but they still try. Everyone should try.

I hope some of that babble helped a little.

Vivi_Stalker · Nov 5, 2002, 09:29 PM

Life DOES go by too fast...Only in the good parts, I've found though.

I mean, man...I have very vague childhood memories from when I was under 8... Best years of my life, but they ran a marathon.

Too bad things can't be re-lived, huh?

I find that living in the moment is best... Things seem to be moving at a fair pace, but before I know it, I'll be out of highschool. Meepies.

The speed life goes at, we should try to live it well!!

Cos · Nov 6, 2002, 09:26 AM

flicky i know exactly how ya feel,im 14 tomorrow!and it feels like just yesty i was 4 years old walking around in my undies with a sword put down the back of them being "heman"!man life goes by quickly when ya having fun hey!my life has been a blast so yeah i miss being young.14 was an age me and my infants friends used to talk about saying wed be in "big big school" and wed be old and yeah!!!year 7 went by like a week and year 8 is almost over now!i cant believe how quickly life has gone!

Zidane's True Love · Nov 6, 2002, 10:00 AM

"Time flies when you're having fun." That's a true statement. Preoccupation makes you lose all awareness of everything around you believe it or not.

Well, I'm 18. I'm kinda surprised myself that I've become a grown woman so quickly (I don't diss you when I say that to me you're all a bunch of kids. just a joke!

). Note that many of you, as well as I, can even seem to remember our past lives. But it seems like we were only a year younger yesterday. Doesn't that make you wonder? I've had my share of ups and downs. Let me list a few:

-Gone through some awful experiences with arrogant girls
-Nearly committed suicide when I was 15
-Lost 2 bunnies

-Joined a great (unbiased) online gaming clan
-Joined UFF9
-Great friends
-Addicted to Final Fantasy
-Became less shy, a more developed sense of humor
-Became somebody that helps others and makes a difference
-Prepped to marry a wonderful husband-to-be!

But in the end, everybody's destined to be on the bright side of things, if you're willing to make an effort. Dun slack off! I'm kinda shocked at it myself. All the above sound like really short events. Short events reflect our short lives. What a ominous statement.

But we all gotta strive for something. But know that it doesn't just come to us naturally.

Flicky · Nov 12, 2002, 03:31 AM

Thanks for replying to me, it helped alot. The last few days I've sat and just thought about everything and I can say that you guys have helped alot

tris203 · Nov 12, 2002, 04:21 PM

it now 2003 it goes so fast

Flicky · Nov 13, 2002, 04:04 AM

Nah uh...not 2003 yet...I've got to have my birthday before that happens...but then again according to mum and dad's divorce papers that dad checked 10 times, it was the 29th Ocotber...

Heybunny · Dec 11, 2002, 12:32 PM

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I mean, man...I have very vague childhood memories from when I was under 8... Best years of my life, but they ran a marathon.

OMG!!! So true! Except I remember my life graphically after 4 years of age... When I started school (what a suprise!)...
I got kicked in, stuff stolen, food fights where I was the only kid that got hit...

Sad, eh???

The same can be said for the opposite too. If parts of your life are horrible, you'll remember them and the time you spend during them will seem like forever.

What's up with that?!?!