In Your Life: UFF9 Live Journal

[Amy]

Entry 5.

I got a new cell phone today, it's spiffy. I went and saw School of Rock, it was actually pretty good, anyone should see it if they get the chance.

Things are getting pissy around here because my mom feels the need to rip me a new ass every other day or every day if she's worse. I don't know why, it's like back the fuck off for a little while so I can breathe too. I don't care how much she has to deal with, if she can't talk to me like a human being she needs to bugger off.

Anyway, nothing interesting other than the phone and movie so i'll go away now.

[Aether]

Aether's next entry.....

Life's been hectic recently with work and christmas and the show....

Oh that's right! The dinner theatre show I'm in opened last Friday. The audience seemed to have a nice time, but it was 45C under those lights, and with 4 layers of clothing....it was hot!

Nothing else really happening at the moment except that I think I'm going crazy.....

Because I work with a lot of people, I meet a lot too. But recently I've been seeing people that I know stuff about them and I haven't seen them before.

For instance, I saw this girl the other day and before she came anywhere near me so I could see her face, I knew that she had one blue eye and one green eye. I asked her if she was from around the area, and she told me she was from about 10 hours away. Weird.

That sort of thing is starting to happen alot to me lately....

[Kat]

Dagger's 3rd entry

Well, my sister's gone. It's much lonelier now.

My brother still won't stop. In fact, he's STILL getting worse.
He set my screen name to 4pm-8pm. Being the idiot he is,
he still doesn't get that I know his password. Or maybe he's just
playing along... Either way, good for me, I guess! But I'm planning
something right now... Hope it works.

School's pretty good. The tryouts were cancelled last Thursday, so we
just practiced. 2 friends of mine carried me up, and one of them got all wobbly,
so.. I fell. On my back. And the girls looked at me like, "IS SHE DEAD!?"
I just jumped to my feet and dusted myself.. and laughed.
My group thought I died, too. We made a scene, yeah.

The official tryouts are tomorrow. I hope I get in.

As for my love life -
Ozzy and I talked on the phone last Saturday. It was great!
A little weird at first, but it was great. It may be just a
little phone call for you guys - but it's one giant leap for us!
Can't wait to see what happens next.

[Amy]

'Lola's' entry 6...

You heard me, LOLA. I was dubbed that at work yesterday because there are now FOUR Amy's that work at ..work. bleh. So now there's 3 and a Lola hahaha..

It's thanksgiving, which = food and lots of it. Yum. I get paid holiday and overtime next week, it's awesome phat fat check yo. Next friday I'm going christmas shopping with my new friend Chris. It should be nice, we 'met' through here (net) and have talked on the phone a few times. I get the feeling he likes me but I don't feel the same way, about him or pretty much any guy..

I got Pat pissed at me, or at least I think I do.. i dunno

School.. I should be having good grades, the trimester ended yesterday. YAY! New classes and such, means 1/3 of the last of my stupid part of life is over.

That about does it for me.

[Beatrix the Goddess]

Bee's Entry..erm...#4? #5? Something like that.

Urgh- have to get this off my chest- I'm getting really sad about the amount of time I don't get to spend here. It's making me pretty miserable at the moment. You know what I'd really like for Christmas? For a day to have at least 12 more hours in it. Then I could fit everything in that I want to. But I suppose it's partially my own fault- being the swot that I am But I'm just not comfortable unless I give 100% to whatever's most important at the time. And at this time it's schoolwork. When I had no schoolwork it was UFF9, but now it's different. Tch, and what's worse is that I don't even spend my leisure time on here because I'm too damn tired to face talking/posting. I give 100% of my reserve energy to UFF9...but the supply is very, very small. Oh yeah & that's another thing- just as I actually have some decent things to live for in life, I get shot to pieces by a new symptom from my illness. Muscle pain. Severe. muscle pain. Heck I felt tired & ill before but at least there was no actual pain, until now. About the only thing that CFS isn't is life-threatening. and yes, I'm very thankful for that.

So yes, sigh sigh, moan moan, is about the gist of that paragraph. But I miss you guys...I really really do..I just hope I'm not fading out of everyone's memory, because none of you are fading out of mine. Heh, if you get a Christmas card from some complete stranger this year it'll be from BtG. You know, that girl you used to know.

...Ok that wasn't funny, it was just depressing.

And being depressed today isn't a good thing, I'll have to get rid of it by tomorrow, because tomorrow is the start of the Christmas season, and in my book- depression & sadness are outlawed at Christmas. It's actually true as well- I've kept it up for years. In fact I think I get quite annoying.

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However, onto what's actually been happening recently...

I've been in a really odd situation, which has never happened before. I was talking to Kuro about the other day actually. Usually, it’s my friends have relationships (troubled or otherwise), & me having none, but being talked to about them anyway. Then sometime last week, I realised I’m actually the only one of my friends (bar one) who’s in a stable relationship. All the others are either depressed because they’ve been single for months, or really depressed because of a recent break-up.

I know it sounds a little like a social triviality, but it’s making me feel incredibly guilty for being happy. So much so that I mentally berate myself every time I mention my other half. It’s ridiculous, completely ridiculous. Still, I wish everyone could just be happy.

Hmm, what else..not much socially, apart from being told by my mother that I should have more of a social life. She doesn’t seem to realise that I’d be completely happy living in a hut on top of a mountain, so long as I had electricity. I’m really not bothered about nights out & things. Hehe, just shows how strange I am.

Although I did go & see ‘Elf’ a few days ago. Rather cheesy, but it was nice to see a classic-style Christmas flick. And the mall that the cinema’s in was all lit up with lights & decorations & a huge tree. I love the shops at Christmas, I’ll walk around for hours without actually buying anything- I just love the atmosphere.

[Veev]

I don't even remember which number this is, but let's just say it's number 5.

This week was really good, since I had the week off from school and spent the entire week back in my hometown with the people I grew up with. I celebrated my birthday last saturday, which was a lot of fun. I basically hung out with my best friends the whole week so you probably wouldn't find anything exciting this week.

Since I had a load of time on my hands, I was able to get my bowling ball resurfaced (get most of the scratches and cuts out of it), which I haven't been able to do in a while. Now it has more spin. Yay! Speaking of bowling....last time I was in my league I had a 210! I am eagerly waiting for wednesday, since that's when my league is.

Now I am back at college, and I already miss my peeps back at home, but I wouldn't cinsider myself homesick just yet. T-3 weeks until I'm done with the semester.

[Tallulah]

Erm, I think I'll join in, too!

Msjones' Entry #1

Back to miserable s*dding university, in the rain, after quite a good weekend. Saturday I went to see 'Elf,' as I had a good idea for something to do for Media News production news day tomorrow (The last one, thank God! ) I think it'd be cool to report on festive films, since it's getting near Christmas... It was pretty good; I'd reccommend it if you've got any little kids close to you, then you can take them. However I could see some faults -- in the first scene, the nun in the orphanage leaves the baby alone with a bottle. I live in a house with a ten-month-old babe, and I know enough to say YOU NEVER LEAVE A BABY ALONE WITH A BOTTLE! Anyway, despite that, it was a fun movie.

Woke up yesterday thinking about how much money I haven't got, and feeling totally miserable and tearful. I finally dragged myself out of bed at quarter past eleven, and I got a text message from my mum saying that a friend of my grandparents, Ron, had died of a heart attack. He wasn't even as old as my dad, which scares me a bit, and I felt kind of sad, because he was a nice guy. He came along to every family party we had, including my nan and grandad's golden wedding anniversary and my uncle and aunt Ann and Jim's silver wedding... He was a lot of fun, but he quit work after finding out about a heart complaint. My friend Toni and my 'landlady' Tracey's dad Dave and stepmum Mandy were there when I found out, so I felt a bit embarrassed about crying, but Toni followed me into the kitchen when I ran in to get a tissue and comforted me (I took up her offer of a donut! ) I phoned home to find out what had happened, and mentioned I was strapped for cash! Mum and Dad are sending me £100 on the understanding that it is part of my Christmas present, so I guess that's okay. Better yet, Toni has offered to take me to the Lincoln Christmas market next week, so that's good (it's what Lincoln is famous for!)
Tracey, Lee (Tracey's husband), baby Taylor and I went up to the town centre to watch the Christmas lights be turned on. It was a kind of waste, because Taylor wasn't that bothered about them, not that he could see them, his little wooly hat kept flopping over his eyes! But we met up with Tracey's brother Steven and his daughter Millie (who is three in January) even though Millie wasn't very well. Her dad bought her a glow stick, and I called her 'Millie Skywalker!' I don't think she got the 'Star Wars' reference though! Myself, I bought a pair of devil's horns (which look better on my plushie animals than they do on me) and a bag of candy floss, supposedly entering into the Christmas spirit, even though I didn't feel up to it. Tracey put the Christmas tree up in the evening, after Taylor had gone to bed, and Lee watched some boring Columbo film on Sky. I made them tea, and they said it was really good, nice and strong without too much milk. I hope Lee isn't expecting too much more of that!

I was late for my lecture this morning, because of the traffic, and it wouldn't have mattered if I'd missed it anyway, because it was just going over old ground, and it was boring old hag Barbara Nield at the helm. She is dull, she makes the microphone pop too much, and she uses dumb metaphors for reasons better known to herself, such as 'card on the table,' things that no-one else in the room understands. It is also wrong of her to assume we all want to become journalists. I, for one, certainly don't want to do that anymore. You know, last year I had a lot of fun producing a pop video for coursework, and that's the kind of thing I'd absolutely love to do. But if I tell anyone else (i.e. Lee) they will laugh. Anyway, Nield mentioned that in the seminars this week we'll be answering questionnaires about this section of the course (Press, Power and the People). I am prepared to tick the 'Poor' boxes all the way down. Seriously...

I shan't bother with the Law lecture... I am sick and tired of all Richard Orange's bulls**t... But I shall persevere, even though I am with a bunch of freeloaders for the Law 'group' presentation. I'm gonna ask Orange if I can do it on my bloody own, like I seem to be doing stuff these days! My other presentation group isn't much help. We're supposed to meet to 'rehearse' tomorrow (That is sooooo vague!) and you can bet it will be at a time to inconvenience me.

[Amy]

Entry 7

My mom is a bitch. She found my notebook, MY PERSONAL FRIGGIN POETRY NOTEBOOK and started reading the shit, then got mad.

Gah.

[Amy]

Entry 8 (already, wow)

Yes, it's a double post, but it's a different day

I just had something really mean but extremely funny told to me. My friends Nate and Kevin were driving down a main road 2 nights ago, and Kevin was smoking a cigarette. He flicked the rest of it out of the window because there was a cop behind him, and it hit one of these 3 guys who were walking in the back of the head! XD I felt bad but ....those two in a car just doesn't make sense.

Moving on. New trimester started Monday, got crappy classes but only 1 is required, so it's okay. It's payday tomorrow at work, and I'm getting my mom something that I hope she will like! I bought my little brother Hokey Pokey Elmo and my other brother some DVDs. So yeah.. hehehe. I am going shopping with Nate Friday, but it requires me to go to work don't wanna! I need to get gas for my car, too, this is crap.

[Kuro]

Kuro's entry... #1.
"Kuro Actually Sat Down and Wrote Something..."

Originally Posted by Beatrix the Goddess

I've been in a really odd situation, which has never happened before. I was talking to Kuro about the other day actually. Usually, it’s my friends have relationships (troubled or otherwise), & me having none, but being talked to about them anyway.Then sometime last week, I realised I’m actually the only one of my friends (bar one) who’s in a stable relationship. All the others are either depressed because they’ve been single for months, or really depressed because of a recent break-up.

I know it sounds a little like a social triviality, but it’s making me feel incredibly guilty for being happy. So much so that I mentally berate myself every time I mention my other half.

Hehe, I know what you mean, woman. But you know something...? You've got something great, and don't feel guilty for knowing you do. If anything, TREASURE that, the way it should be. It's one thing to know you have something good and to let it make you happy unapologetically, quite another to look down your nose at people and scoff at thos who DON'T have it the way you do. And I know you, you're DEFINITELY not the latter.

Hehe, well, enough lecturing from me.

I dunno, maybe it's just me. Sometimes I really feel like I'm really undeserving when people ask me for help. I haven't felt really qualified to give advice for a while now, partially because my time is spread thin between a few different projects/situations/whatever, and if I could give more quality advice, I would.

But when it comes to relationships... heh, I don't try to stand high and mighty about it, but I AM very happy with it, and what the two of us have made the relationship into. I guess that's what it's about. I was talking to a friend the other day. He's been married twice, has a daughter, and is now separted from his second wife. I absolutely love the guy, he's truly a great friend and I KNOW he'd be the one to give his shirt off his back if Aki or I needed it. But he's also said, "If you two ever have relationshp problems... don't ask me for advice." It was half-jokingly, but I think he was partially serious, too.

To put something in perspective, I've been with Aki as a girlfriend for 4 years, engaged for one, and married as of October. Sure we've had a few rough spots, times when there's stress and one person isn't quite at 100%. But... hey, when people say that "if you love each other, you'll work things out," it can be VERY true. It might just be our personalities, too. Neither one of us is extremely argumentative. Either that or we just naturally tend to agree on the bigger issues that come up.

Either way, well, I know some of my friends here have asked me how married life is. Honestly, it's not different than when we were engaged except that now we live together and my name's changed. And we've actually lived together for a few months before getting married, so that wasn't as big a transition as it would have been otherwise...

I'm trying to decide if I want to go back to school and get a Master's Degree, or even a second Bachelor's Degree. Which might be interesting; tonight Aki and I were talking about it. It might be interesting to go back to school for that. Maybe major in Japanese, I dunno. Lately I've been reading and listening to more Japanese than English. Might be nice to get formally instructed, even if I've been able to do it on my own.

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Well, I guess I should also say a little about what's going on... er, in daily life, huh?

Today was typical, I suppose. Being the start of the holiday season, I've been comprising a few Christmas lists and figuring out where to send cards and gifts. Cashflow is a little tight this year because of the wedding, but meh, that's how things are. Went and picked up today's Shonen Sunday, so I'm currently translating the latest chapter of Inuyasha. That usually keeps me busy for about a day while I translate and then create the pages. Kind of a fun side-project.

After picking up Aki from work, we went to a nice ramen shop and just talked about... stuff. I think that's always something I enjoy, when we get to just be out of the apartment, somewhere outside, and just chat.

[Beatrix the Goddess]

Bee's Entry #6

Oh you're most definitely qualified to give advice, woman...

I'm trying to decide if I want to go back to school and get a Master's Degree, or even a second Bachelor's Degree. Which might be interesting; tonight Roy and I were talking about it. It might be interesting to go back to school for that. Maybe major in Japanese, I dunno. Lately I've been reading and listening to more Japanese than English. Might be nice to get formally instructed, even if I've been able to do it on my own.

Really?! Oh go on, do it do it do it do it do it do it. Look at the advantages-

1. Playing Jap Final Fantasy games without a single translation problem. And don't deny you have problems with it- I remember you with FF Origins, woman

2. Swearing in Jap even more explicitly than you already do.

3. Translating Jap stuff for this site!

4. Being proud of yourself & stuff.

5. Nice change from work.

6. Square might hire you.

7. If they do hire you, you can translate top secret documents for us.

8. Then you can blackmail Sakaguchi

9. Then you can take over the world.

10. I SAY YOU SHOULD!

[antman]

antman again...

Well, college is horrible at the mo. It's end of term in 2 weeks, and I have lots of drama work to do...but I'm not actually sure what it is that I have to do. No one in the class seems to. Hopefully the teacher will actually be clear about it soon, which he hasn't been so far, so that we can actually do it.

Hmm, I've got a long time friend in America whom I've had crushes on in the past, and she did on me once...we kinda talked about it again the other day, and decided we'd talk about it when she visits next year. I'm not exactly sure where I stand, but oh well. Can only hope

[Vivi_Stalker]

Merf, 'nother entry from me.

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A lot have things have been going on, but not too much that I haven't handled with some outside help. One of which was the issue of my descision to go back on some sort of medication for my troubles with anxiety. When I wasn't worried in the past about so and so looking at me slightly funny or something really trivial I might commonly panic over, I did a lot better at everything.

Only trouble is that my mother, although I tell her I've got it worked out, won't let me beause it's expensive. But what I tried to tell the woman, is that if we can't afford it, my counselor can hook me up through some connections so I CAN afford it. But being the obstinate bitch she is, she confiscated the prescription the doctor wrote up for me. ;;;;;;;

I have a meeting early at school tomorrow, but she won't attend. Thank god. She'll be on speakerphone, but I realy don't want to go. She'll either be a complete angel as she usually is over the phone, and totally kill me when I get home for speaking ill of her, or be a total bitch over the phone as well. ;

And the weather isn't getting to me as much as I thought it would... But it's still early yet. The snow'll pie up, and I won't be a happy camper.

Bad week, but things are looking up, I suppose...

[Tallulah]

Msjones' Entry #2

Ugh! Came into uni for a law seminar, and I really could have done without it! Three groups of us did presentations, and my group hasn't even started on ours yet! On top of that I have an essay to hand in next Thursday, and guess what? I haven't started on that, either! Although I do plan to get the research over and done with tomorrow, I just got the Odeon film times and there's a film I really... really want to see! ('Brother Bear' in case you were wondering -- I'm just a kid at heart, it's hanging out with Taylor that does it... )

On a better note, I got Radio News Production over and done with on Tuesday. My crowning achievement were the reviews which, despite being a bit of a week news story, were complimented by Jon, my tutor. I beamed with eternal pride for the first time since I got here!

The most fun I've been having is filling out the assessment sheets for each section of the course. I've tried to be honest, but in Law I found myself ticking all the way down the 'Unsatisfactory' column, just as I planned to!

All in all, I'm just looking forward to Christmas. Mum, who broke her leg after Dave's party eight weeks ago, just got out of her plaster cast, but now has to wear a plastic support with straps and such for another six weeks so she is feeling pretty low... I'm just double-checking the train times, and trying to decide which train to get. Lee is giving me a lift to Newark North Gate station, where I can get a train direct to Kings Cross, so I'm glad for that. It's far more convenient than taking a bus into town, and getting a crain from Lincoln Central to... well you get the idea! At least I can travel for free! My dad used to work on the railways before he retired (at 55 ) so we get privilege tickets!

[Amy]

Entry 9..

I went christmas shopping last night. I don't think I've ever spent so much money in one day. I spent 85 for my car insurance / little phone bill, 66 something for a TV for my mom's christmas present, and then 91.04 for all the little things, and i'm not even done yet! It was fun though. My friends Nate and Kevin went with me to the mall, but they pissed me off because Kevin stole something from hot topic and spencers. I dropped them off at Nate's and went on my way doing the rest of my shopping, and decided that these two really are taking advantage of me...

I decided not to go to work today. I have so much shit that needs doing in this room. You wouldn't guess it was my room, there is stuff all over the place, and stuff that needs to be boxed, thrown out, etc.. gah. Plus, I got a new printer, that's been sitting on my floor waiting to be hooked up, my closet's a mess..

Moving on. I think I'm going to get moving though.. the longer I wait, the less time to having it done!